Because Of You...
Do you remember the promise you made?
I do, as clearly as the day you said the words.
And yet, here I sit crying because you broke,
your word to me.
You broke your promise, our sacred vow.
A vow made from the heart.
An oath to never leave,
To always be there no matter what,
To never break this deep bond
that we had forged.
Forged from trust,
Melded together from compassion,
And understanding of each other,
And all we had been through in our lives.
A dear and deep friendship that was supposed to
No longer will our words dance upon a page,
Words meshing and clashing,
Feelings being written because they were
unable to be spoken aloud,
I am again solo, alone in this dance.
Each time I cried your hands gently wiped my tears,
When you needed a hug, I was there
Crying the tears that you couldn't shed,
Stilling the sirens song with an Angel's melody
As you were there so I wouldn't do the forbidden
dance and lose myself in the process.
Although miles separated us,
It never mattered, for we were always there
for each other.
I felt your pain,
Your ups and downs,
Your fears and concerns,
Your laughter and smiles,
Miles didn't matter in our friendship,
It just was.
Yet, you said that fateful day good bye.
That this next journey of your life you had to do alone,
That I was no longer needed.
You needed to make sure you could stand on your own,
As you said those words I felt it happen,
Something that I thought wouldn't
I felt the connection or bond break in two.
I never believed it would happen,
I thought it was stronger than that,
But it did, it is gone, for I can no longer
feel you there.
I know when it happened because
The air left my very body,
I felt my heart break,
As if a knife came and stabbed me
down into my very soul.
There was nothing I could say or do,
For I know you so very well,
Your mind was made up,
So all I could do is watch you leave
Watch you and Alpha walk away through
crystal tear stained eyes.
So here I sit still
Hurt yet again,
For you did the one thing you said you wouldn't
You did exactly what all the others did.
Here I sit crying again for that same damn ache.
But no more,
I have decided to keep my heart safe
from now on.
Guards will surround it, keeping others out.
Walls have erected to keep it hidden
From others and myself,
because honestly I don't even trust myself any longer.
Opening and caring scares me because it always
ends with me being in tears.
As Omega and I watch you walk away,
My partner in crime,
I wish you success and hope you find
What you are looking for,
Yet silently, I cry for the loss I feel inside.
The emptiness that has instilled itself in my heart.
Goodbye my dear friend.
Fore even though you have left,
You still carry a piece of my heart with you.
Maybe that way one day you will find your way back.