A part of me wants to curl up and cry
Tired of trying so hard to please those all around
I just want to lie here and not feel anymore
To go within myself like I have before
Blending in with the shadows until you
cant see me anymore
Opening my heart to those like I did
was a big mistake
All it has brought me was heartache and pain
A since of loss that I havent felt in a while
Spiteful and wicked tongues have hurt me
more than I will ever let you know
Words have cut through my heart like a knife
making it bleed once again.
Causing silent crystal tears to shed from my eyes
Another part of me wants to scream and yell
To push back and hurt those who have wounded me
Wiping the tears from my eyes, they flare once again with
hells red fury
Rage is flowing through me and I cant turn it off
Yet honestly I dont want to, I love the feel of it
A section of my heart has turned black and as cold as ice
Causing something dark and beautiful to arise inside me yet again
Rising up and seeking to hurt the ones who have made
me feel this way again.
I want to strike out in revenge at the pain of betrayal
I am feeling
Wanting to take the knife that was shoved in my
back and in turn stab it right back
I want them to feel the pain I feel three folds over!!!
I want my Vengeance!!!
Yet to do all of this would be to hurt someone
I truly love more than life itself
Someone who means more to me than the hot anger
I hold inside.
So I will do what I always do, what I am good at
I will hide it all behind an Angels smile.